Harapan nak tgk game diatas tak berkesampaian di hari Boxing Day...Hancur berkecai, punah ranah, haru biru, kalau takot dilanda ombak ;jgn berumah di tepi pantai punya perasaan... tetiba plak tiket kapai terobang mahai tak hengat...takpe la....takder rezeki nk berboxing.... huhuhuhuhuhu
I was born together with another 3 brother and sisters. My mom is jobless and my dad was missing in action...Long before I was born… The last day that I last saw my mom is a day in the middle of the week...Or so I thought...
My mom had one weird habit...She likes to relocate us...sometimes she put us in a box; filled with a filthy rugs...or when she's in the mood, she will climb and place us on the roof... "Just enjoying the view and the starts", she always said... For me it was suffering, I had Acrophobia. Height and I do not belong to be together...
She left me in the middle of nowhere and rush back to my other siblings... I think Lilo ; my eldest sister pull out some same joke...try to cross the road in order to follow me and mom.. Stupid Lilo and stupid old timer joke... Lilo always be a joker in the family.. She knew how to put back a smile on mom's face...She's mom fave.
So I've been sitting by the road and waited for my mom to come back... After 1 hour, I started crying.... The monsters passed by and scared a shit outta me...So, I just wait while cursing Lilo and prayed mom will come back...
After a while, I saw 2 makciks coming my way...Panicking, I was desperate finding a place to hide and I saw a large black hole and without thinking I dove in...
"Eh mak, ada anak kucing laaa dlm ekzos keta ni..."
"Tarik keluar"
I was struggling when I was pull-out by her...Tried harder to break-free and screaming with a great Meooww....I think I've managed to scared her away when she said "Comelnyaaaa" and put me back on the ground....
Terrified, afraid and crying...and felt naked and out of place...Another cat, Openg approached me and calming me down... He patted my head and said "Jgn risau, diaorg ni ok..." and assured me to drink and eat his food... I don't even understand a word he said but I guess he’s calming me down....
Since that day on ward, they called me 'Benang'... I don't know what it mean and I'm don't dare to ask... Gone was my previous name and family...This family is my newly found home... Hopefully, one day they start conversed in English or Latin and stop using foreign languages such as Malay... [Lilo once said I sound stupid if I speak Malay...] But Openg sounds weird and sillier when he struggled to speak in English or Latin...
One always said "Itu laa pentingnya English Edukesyen...." sigh!
bukan sy...ihsan gugel
*ehsan gugel
Amoi....ujung bulan depan kite stenbai...ko paham kan maksud stenbai aku....
Errrm..paham Nyah paham!!!!!
Ok, kite kene stat cari dh ni..perkara ni tak bleh buat main2...kepantangan aku kalau dh beriya pihak lagi satu buat leceh2...lembab tak tentu pasal...cepat mendatangkan amarah...
Paham Nyah..Paham...ujung bulan depan...dua kali gaji Nyah...yahuu!!!!!!
Aku nk bli dua! satu yg kecik satu yg sniper...aku nk bli yg water blaster jugak...ko basah nnt moi...
Huhuhuhu!!!!!!!!tak sabar wei!!!!nk bagi kolig aku pinjam???
Tak bleh! siapa tak der NERF tak bleh join..tgk jek dr jauh!!!!!!!
The journey starts at 7am in the morning... En Kalil was feeling so sorry for me n my big bags, he actually offered to drive me to KL Sentral... Huhuhuhu..Kdg2 En Kalil mmg teror buat scene nanges2 ni... Tp hell yeah, sy ada ego jugak...kenapa sy nk nanges depan En Kalil ek? Bukan p umrah...n En Kalil tau kot, sy takkan apa2...good job En Kalil.. :)
ehsan gugel'dia' : kwn sy penah cakap; "satu hari, ko akan jumpa sorg pompuan ni.. bila tgk jek die ko akan tersenyum dn hati ko cakap..'she's the one'.." bila sy jumpa; mlm tu terus sy text kwn sy n sy cakap "i think i knw what u meant bro...i met her.."sy : [speechless sial!]'dia' : mcm sy cakap; sy dh buat pilihan...sy : pilihan?'dia' : dlm idop sy; sekarang..sy kenal 2 org perempuan...kata ada perempuan A n awk as perempuan B..sy : nape sy B? sy tak suke B...'dia' : ok, kalau mcm tu awk suke apa?sy : D la....'dia' : ok, D..so sy kenal A & D..kalau dgn A, hidup sy akan stay the same...mcm dlu.. sbb A ni mmg mcm exes sy... Tp kalau sy dgn D, sy mungkin berubah...jd lebih baik.. so sy dh pilih... n sy puas ati, eventhough kalau sy tak dpt D, sy mungkin berubah menjadi yg terbaik..sbb mcm sy cakap, seumur idup sy, sy tak penah jumpa org mcm D n ni maybe peluang sekali seumur idop..n sy mungkin takkan lepaskan mcm tu jek...tp kalau mmg xder jodoh, sy redha...sy : kenape pulak awk pilih sy????'dia' : sy tak kata sy pilih awk...sy : celaka haram!!! bangangggg!!! malu ok...!!!'dia' : hahahahahahahaha...
p.s My future boss given his parking lot to me :) yeay me... :) lav it boss..u r the great!
p.s.s Panjang turned out to be a Fucking JERK and every fiber of my body are hating him..
Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.
Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.
I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying
Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
Love me..
Gile babih...
To many things to be done..but too little money..aishhhh....
xpe, as long as I can temporarily take my mind off of En Panjang...
pssttt En Panjang..dh laa duduk sana..meh balik KL meh..meh...! ;)
Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu
Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu
Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa
Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya
Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu
Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu...
But then, 'he' happened... :)
So I guess, I'm stayin :)
Thanks Allah
