Dedicate this poem to 'him'

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

W. H. Auden

Tips & Tricks for a flatter abs

The key to get a nice and flatter muffin tops is CONSISTENCY!

I have a huge muffin tops.. I hate that part of my body and I do think woman all around the word felt the same...

Last Saturday, my friend invited me to watch a play in Istana Budaya ; Lat the Kampung Boy and I decided to wear my British India skirt to that play..

The problem is; my muffin top keep on popping itself out if I wore the bloody skirt.. It's a bit of a challenge; so I challenge myself to at least get a flatter and least noticeable tummy based on one of my UK health magazine had suggested..

These are the tips :

1. Do a lot of twist.. [more u twist; the faster u'll kiss that yummy tummy goodbye]
2. Eat carbohydrates before 2pm [pulun makan nasik; half cup during lunch]
3. Stop eating 3hrs before going to bed.. [i always hungry after my gym session at nite so I drank a half cup of HL Strawberry Milk.. yummy n less fat :)]
4. No easy way out.. keep on exercising.. [do a mixture of 30min cardio exercises; then jump to abs exercise i.e plank, sit-ups]
5. Try to replace ur daily meal with a wholesome/wholegrain substance.. it doesnt taste that bad..

I was suprised by the result and quite happy with it :) so I did wore that skirt to the play n get compliment frm my friend :) wink2..

It also easier to hide the tummy.. These are the secrets:

1. Wear a cotton tops that NOT tighly clung to your body
2. Choose dark colour tops. it will make the belly less visible..
3. Confident! You only will look pretty when you are confident with your body.. muahs!
4. Choose your accessories wisely.. The focus now is the belly; not u becoming a Christmas tree..
5. Choose ur undergarments wisely.. Corset will help [i cant wear those.. I sweat like a lot and it was so hot and uncomfortable]

All in all, the exercising, consistencies, and the tricks will create a beatiful abs. n yeah a healthy diet :)

Malu

So malu coz been over-reacted..

Geez!..take a chill pills..

Been up all nite..

N been extra sensitive with sounds..

[Very unnecessarily.. I silence the phone the whole day..dork!]

Finally, when I can get hold of him...

I finally breathing...[phew!]

There are so many horrid imagination that been played on my mind eversince he's been outta reach..

Gaung, Accident, Other girls....Astagafirullahalazim...

Hey, don't blame me..

I used to be one damn cool chix..

N now, because of the filthy histories; I totally changed to this lunatic persona...

N yep, during that little chat of ours, I did cry..

[mcm bebudak]

Arrrgghhh!!! I hate this side of me...moopy...

So un-cool...

I heard he smiled at the other end...

He must be so damn proud knowing how BIG impact he did brought to my life...and my little heart...

U gonna pay mister!

In my moopy mood...

A guy : Relax B, Allah jumpa kan u dgn all other guys sbb nk u tau pasal lelaki....

Me : Alhamdulillah for that..

A guy : Wanna have a drink?

Me : Not tonight.. I totally gave in...

A guy : Don't give up...great guy is just around the corner...

Me : [blur]

Jahat laa En Panjang...

I truly hate him and what have he done to me...

[hate ke? hehehehehhehehe :p]

Tgh2 moopy, tu, ada pulak lagu ni :

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching
No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

Love me..

So, I know he proud of me..n himself at this point of time...

I know dear...But u will suffer the consequences.. :p

g a d u h

remekin...google search

I hate him!

I really2 hate him...

I will regret this entry another 2-3 hours...

But at this point of time, i truly madly hate him...

Grrrr!!!...

He threw the remekin at me..

The poor thing broke into million pieces...

Scattered and it does scarred my heart...

"Greeaaatttt!!!!!Bagus laaa!!!!" I yelled..

He ran off..Maybe too surprised...

Never in my life I yelled at him...

He just ran off....

I picked the pieces of the broken remekin..

Threw it away...

I supposed to bake a souffle for him with that remekin...

I supposed to learn how to bake perfectly for him with that remekin...

He did glance on me; everytime I looked away...

I knew he didn't meant to...

But the incident does break my heart...

Nakal sgt...

But I know my 3 days war initiated right after the incident will not happen...

How could I resist those charm..

He NEVER learn....

Mak : Manjakan sgt kucing tu... Adek2...iskk!

Me : Bior lee....

Adrenaline Rush

One chapter have gone..
N the new chapter just have begun..
[I think I should have a counter...just to keep track how long he's away]


Start off my weekend by doing some outdoor activities..
Hope it will turn out good..
Quite nervous though..
My friend have broke her ankle during her climb...MANY years back..
N still, it freaking me out.. ;"(
Hopefully nothing bad happen...


ok, my new strategy in order to prevent myself from missing him badly is to busy myself
with the craft, baking and outdoor activities..
As for craft and baking... I take little step by making a chicken ham with blackpepper and cheese sandwich every nite after gym..
I used the wholegrain bread and put the chicken ham and cheese..
Before put it in the oven and let it cook for 10minutes..


Served with tomatoes, a lil bit of mayoneis and of course...it never been completed without mustard :)
I never tot my simplest cooking is good until my mak and ayah keep on asking for sandwiches every nite...
N En Panjang didn't seems to loath it...
So thumbs up for me ;)..


Next step, I wanna make a chocolate souffle and chocolate mud pie..
Need to keep on practicing till the perfection..
[due to the promised I made to him..to bake a birthday cake this becoming July...stoopid me!]


Without him bugging me [eleh!.. :p], I'm quite sure I can score the perfect 10...
Ganbatte!!


Enuff being trained to be a superb wifey/mommy/ lady...


My outdoor plan for this year quite promising..

X percaya?? sila scroll bawah :

1. March 2011 - Gngn Nuang
2. April 2011 - Mulu-Kuching backpack
3. Early May 2011 - Redang + Dive trip
4. End May 2011 - Kapas + Candat Sotong + Dive trip
5. End year 2011 - Bali + Shopping + Sarping [surfing in local]
6. End year 2011 - annual surfing trip @Cherating

Gile babih...

To many things to be done..but too little money..aishhhh....

xpe, as long as I can temporarily take my mind off of En Panjang...

pssttt En Panjang..dh laa duduk sana..meh balik KL meh..meh...! ;)

The Best Song Eva!

Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu...

To Si Panjang, I'll b waitin :)

Love is... ?

Never knew that I loved him this much..
Until he's gone..
The world seems empty again..
Hollowness are everywhere..
It were silence from the top of the tree to the deepest ground of the roots..

I knew I'm going to shed the tears the minute he looked into my eyes..
Telling good bye..
Advising me to go strong and don't ever cry..
All I'm doing is just looked away..
And diverted this small mind of mine over the least significant things..
Such as .."Pee"...?

He keep looking back..
Fourth times...I just peeked from my rear mirrors..
To afraid to even wave; because I know, at that moment of time...
I would be burst into tears...

For three months..He's been colouring my world..
My once black & white world..
With his touch; he did add some fuschia... [canteknya fuschia]..
N now he's gone..

I love my laughs around him..
I know I'm gonna missed those moments..
I know I'm gonna missed that Drama King..
Or Mr Exaggerate..
I'm gonna missed that smile...The eyes..
The hair..
The small mole on the bottom of his rite chin..
The accent..hehehehe..Don't get me wrong...It does annoyed me sometimes...
But after awhile, I found it very...fascinating... :)
I know I'm gonna missed the feeling after he said 'Sy minta maaf sgt2.."..
The purest n yep, it did touch my icy-heart...

I don't have any idea what would happened...
But I think, if something will happened...
It will turn out good if he's around...
I hope everything will turn out good...
And for the first time in my life...
I don't plan to be very cincai about things that would involve him...
Y? I still searching for the reasons...

But rite now, the stooopid-missin feeling did hurt!!
Like a lot!!!!!!!!!!


I know he will not hurt me.. I HOPE he's not gonna hurt me...